When Childhood Is A Struggle

When Childhood Is A Struggle

Coming from a broken family my childhood was anything but carefree, there were some fun times and carefree times but it wasn’t a constant. As a child I guess I felt confused about why my parents fought, I mean at the time I probably thought that only children fight, it was just a part of having siblings. Now as a parent myself I understand that everyone argues; sometimes it means that love has gone but other times it’s just a clash of differing expectations/opinions. When differing personalities are joined, there are sure to be disagreements just as there would be in area of life.

As a mother I try my best to give my children a stress-free childhood however due to situations beyond my control I’m not sure how feasible it is for my children to have a completely stress-free childhood. I love my children beyond the beyonds and would give my life to protect them; unfortunately life itself is not carefree. With my husband, their dad, having epilepsy they are learning about compassion for others and that not everyone is “normal”. For my kids living with someone who has epilepsy will give them an experience of people with epilepsy more than what their peers may experience.

I myself have to deal with anxiety issues and try my best to protect my children when the anxiety overwhelms me as I want my children to be children as long as possible. I don’t want my children to grow up too fast as I did. It’s not fair on children to put adult problems on their little shoulders, for our littlies to worry about us adults when being a child in the 21st century can be difficult enough

Children that grow up in households that are far from stress-free may grow in ways that other children with easier lives may not. Though of course this is all relative, having a stressful childhood can also have detrimental effects on some children, I think a lot is determined on the personality of the child and whether that child can break through the negativity that he/she has had to live with. Some children may build “walls” to protect themselves and never know to break through, yet others may build “walls” but eventually allow the “walls” to weaken.

Everyone has different experiences as children and often that may determine how we are as adults, then again there are times when adults need to adapt to the world around them and if they can’t, they may find that life is more stressful than life is for others.

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Married To Epilepsy – Explained

Married To Epilepsy – Explained

I did a previous blog post called Married To Epilepsy and had a comment how I wasn’t married to epilepsy it is my husband that has epilepsy – in many ways that’s correct; however there are times when the epilepsy feels like it is at the forefront. Over the last few days I have spent my time between home and the I.C.U at my Husbands side. He was admitted to the I.C.U after E.D. could not get the seizures under control.

My husband is the one that directly affects, yet it does indirectly affect me. when my husband is going through a bad bout then I’m the one that has to be there not only for him, but to make sure that our kids and the housework is not neglected.

So though someone diagnosed with epilepsy is the one directly affected, indirectly it also affects their loved ones. I know that what my husband goes through is extremely tough but what cannot be ignored is the affect it not only has on myself, but also on our children and family and friends.

My husband doesn’t like being labelled “an epileptic” so though I could have titled the blog post “Married To An Epileptic” – that would have been disrespectful to my husband. When things are going smoother, you could almost forget about the epilepsy and things could go smoothly for days – and then again there will be times when they are rough.

So I am married to Rob who has epilepsy but there times when it feels like I’m Married To Epilepsy.